Piece of Mind

20060331

turn

disappointment is imminent as the road takes a turn sacrifices have been made so much still unsaid this isn't a one-way street i'm taking the backseat are they going to fade? regret if i stayed? it is never easy to be locked out without a key trying hard to find the ties that bind expectations unfulfilled go the extra mile i will after the sun and the rain nothing left but pain?

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/31/2006 02:54:00 PM 0 comments

mcd

let me try to recap my mcd visits this week... 1... sun 0100 2... sun 1130 3... tue 1300 4... thu 0000 & 0100 5... thu 1630 6... fri 0230 i really need to find another place to hang out... but i doubt i will...

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/31/2006 04:28:00 AM 0 comments

20060330

candles

i went to two mcd24 outlets in an hour...

the first was in taman sutera... for my coursemate's birthday celebration... as u can clearly see from the pix... we were all there at midnight... then at one... i was in the usual mcd24... just for a brief moment though... there had just been another party there too... at three... i reached home and tried to get back to studying... at four... i guessed it was time to sleep at eight... i was clueless about my test... not entirely but mostly.... but hey... at least i had fun :)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/30/2006 02:52:00 PM 0 comments

20060328

silence

tryin' hard to keep my sanity throughout this silence... so anyway... i have been wastin' my time doin' stuff other than revisin'... which is gonna end up in screwed-up results this time around... havin' drinks in mcd... dream on... night after night... wonder where i'll be tonight... kinda cool that i just woke up awhile ago and already two of my pals have made dinner n supper plans... so in between my outings i had better open my robotics book before the day is over... i actually composed an sms poem today... early in the morning as i was rushing for robotics... a sudden moment of inspiration... and sent it to my friend in kl after typing it out in class itself... hehe... and she said it was real sweet... she must have liked it cos she went on to crap about some stuff... true to her funny self... i have this secret hope that the poem might become popular and end up being forwarded back to me one day ;)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/28/2006 05:35:00 PM 0 comments

20060326

fight

can't fight these feelings that won't go away trying hard to pull myself through the day as hard as i try to runaway with all my might there is no place anywhere left for me to hide the stars twinkle brilliantly up in the sky can't escape these thoughts as days go by wondering when i'll stop living a lie hoping i'll never have to say goodbye

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/26/2006 03:15:00 PM 0 comments

day out

pretty tiring saturday... tried my hand at archery for the first time with a couple of friends... kinda arm-straining at first... but it's definitely pretty enjoyable...

and was out to church... mamak... jj... no.1... mcd... and that's my saturday in short... nothin' to elaborate... :)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/26/2006 02:38:00 PM 0 comments

20060325

persevere

at times life is wicked and i just can't see the light a silver lining sometimes isn't enough to make some wrongs seem right whatever life brings i've been through everything and now i'm on my knees again at times life's unfair and you know it's plain to see hey god i know i'm just a dot in this world have you forgot about me? whatever life brings i've been through everything and now i'm on my knees again but i know i must go on although i hurt i must be strong because inside i know that many feel this way children don't stop dancing believe you can fly away...away am i hiding in the shadows? forget the pain and forget the sorrows creed - don't stop dancing

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/25/2006 12:53:00 PM 0 comments

fluctuate

the only interesting event i saw at the convo fair was the minibike racing... those bikes are really tiny and fast... and they were still racing even though it was past midnight... ironic in a uni where the admin is always so uptight and overzealous in enforcing nonsensical rulings... i'm listenin' to red letters by dc talk... it does bring back some memories... of a time in high school... nothin' particularly interesting though... just realised i haven't kept in touch with a friend for quite some time... is there a rewind button somewhere to take a walk down memory lane?

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/25/2006 01:25:00 AM 0 comments

20060324

good & bad

i skipped the first class of today... and woke up to find that my roomie collected my test paper for me... and what a pleasant surprise... full marks... after four years here i think this is a first... cool... i attended the second class of today... and the lecturer was also distributing our test sheets... despite this test being an open-book one... i literally flunked it... not unexpected though... songs on my current playlist: youth group - forever young imogen heap - hide and seek yellowcard - only one lostprophets - last train home lifehouse - everything what happened to my usual prog rock? :(

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/24/2006 12:24:00 PM 0 comments

20060323

torrentmeister

a vital book for newbies... most people won't actually need a whole book i think... :)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/23/2006 03:18:00 PM 0 comments

party

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/23/2006 11:13:00 AM 0 comments

weight

lana said to clark... you look like you've got the weight of the world on your shoulders... i don't have superpowers like clark but it definitely feels heavy for me now... michael said to lincoln... have a little faith... i'm trying hard to escape my own prison... johnny said to dennis... there's always the chance she feels the same way... is there? p.s. quotes from smallville, prison break & the o.c. respectively

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/23/2006 12:34:00 AM 0 comments

20060322

rat

the long-awaited episode 14 of prison break is out! terrific episode with a lot of suspense... and touching scenes... totally enjoyed the whole 42 mins of it... i think many of my friends can barely wait to watch it too... on the other hand... episode 16 of the o.c. has this great remix of the classic song... forever young... which got me hooked... especially since i'm in the mood for ballads nowadays ;) time for dinner... can't think of any new places to break the usual routine of food stalls... hmmm...

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/22/2006 06:06:00 PM 0 comments

turmoil

but there's still tomorrow forget the sorrow and i can be on the last train home watch it pass the day as it fades away no more time to care no more time, today lostprophets - last train home

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/22/2006 01:16:00 AM 0 comments

20060321

mosaic

finally... here are some pics from the mosaic music festival in sg i went to last week with a trio of friends... i felt more like writing in the last few posts hence the slight delay... didn't wanna post so much stuff up at once... so i decided on pouring out first... :) anyway... it was a pop tart performance we went to... they're a sg dj outfit which spins indie records... have i got the facts right? before u ask... no i am not a fan of them... and after watching their performance... i was far from thrilled... no offence to their supporters though ;) instead... i just enjoyed the upbeat atmosphere... lively crowd... and stunning night view at the esplanade... :)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/21/2006 08:42:00 PM 0 comments

20060320

grateful

i'm grateful for my friend who was there when i needed one most... one phone call from thousands of miles away which made a difference... u know who u are... but u dun read my blog often ;) but u did take the time to read a few months' of archives in one go... i'll probably tell u to read this... hehe... for now... it's a relief to have shared my burden... a friend in need is a friend indeed

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/20/2006 03:46:00 AM 0 comments

joy/sorrow

it's been quite a weekend... met up with four of my hometown buddies in four different occasions for meals/drinks... to update each other with stuff... chat... basically just an excuse for me to hang out... ;) just came back from mcd24 for the fourth time in three days... birthday celebration... kind of a surprise one... a joyous gathering it was... i definitely did meet a whole lot of friends over the past few days... which is really something to be happy about... isn't it? come to think of it... for the past four days i've been hangin' out from sg to mcd to jj and here and there... and at the end of the day (read: now)... i'm feelin' lost... sadly... if only things were so simple for me... yeah i know i should be countin' my blessings and delight in them... but i just can't seem to be joyful as i should be... i really appreciate all the friends who have been there with me but nevertheless... some things in life just can't be solved so easily... thoughts and feelings that just won't go away... i really need to pull myself up from this pit i fell into... and i have to do it alone... ____________________________________________________________________

i carry a smile when i'm broken in two and i'm nobody without someone like you i'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me i lie awake it's a quarter past three i''m screamin' at night as if i thought you'd hear me yeah my heart is callin' you and nobody knows it but me the tony rich project - nobody knows

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/20/2006 01:47:00 AM 0 comments

20060318

distant

here I go scream my lungs out and try to get to you you are my only one i let go there's just no one that gets me like you do you are my only my only one yellowcard - only one

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/18/2006 06:28:00 PM 0 comments

into her eyes

when he looks into her eyes he sees a well into her angelic soul within a window overlooking a bed of roses a path flanked by cherry blossoms a peaceful dwelling free of worries when he looks into her eyes he sees the sunset in the middle of the ocean the stars that twinkle brightly at night the rainbow after a heavy downpour the realization of his lifelong dream

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/18/2006 04:00:00 PM 0 comments

bewildered

i shall not make this blog a regular review of news articles but some weird article in the star caught my attention... so... entitled "decision not to date pays off"... it goes on to detail how a student in penang decided not to date ever since he stepped into secondary school... and how his "years of sacrifice" have paid off after having obtained 4As in the STPM... however... in the same article... there is also mention of his straight As schoolmate who on the other hand has a gf... lesson learnt... straight As and dating are independent events... NOT mutually exclusive... sorry for using stats jargon... hehe... friday... reached home from across the causeway at 0430hrs... couldn't make it for 0800 class so ended up goin' for the 1100 one only... slept a bit more and then had chow in mcd24... and dessert in secretrecipe... lunch was durin' teatime and dinner was durin' suppertime... which i had in mcd24 (again!) so it was all fast food... not that i'm not sick of burgers yet... just that i prefer the air-con and ambience of the place... which is a relief during scorching afternoons... like yesterday... it's my big bro's bday today... so... HAPPY BIRTHDAY! no he doesn't read this blog tho'... :)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/18/2006 11:31:00 AM 0 comments

20060317

disorder

i have been sleepin' less than usual... partly because of my late nights and early risings for class... and i can't seem to make up for lost sleep in the afternoons... which are pretty hot... and also somehow or rather... ppl will start to sms and make plans for outings/whatever when i'm in bed... and partly because of... hmmm... the blues... i have been eatin' less than usual... which is quite disturbing cos my appetite isn't normal as it used to be... frog meat with dried chilli and ginger in geylang early this morning was really nice though... and it was my first time eating an amphibian... as far as i can recall... ;) there's one thing i have been doin' a little more than usual though... thinking... and that's probably a cause of the other deficiencies

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/17/2006 12:28:00 PM 0 comments

20060316

red

the blog might look different a little... but little has changed about anythin' else... summer is gone with the wind... dry leaves carpet the ground... will hope be merely an illusion?

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/16/2006 02:30:00 PM 0 comments

autumn

well... the weather's so scorching the leaves are beginning to wither and fall... in a way it looks like autumn... and since there is so much greenery (and brownery?) in campus... it is quite a nice sight... i wouldn't have noticed it if not for my friend's casual remark... everyday brings with it fresh new adventures... lessons to be learnt... and trials that must be overcome... a few pals of mine are not goin through the best of times... well... the tree and its branches might seem bare and dead now... but spring will surely come along to bring renewal and revival of life... and that's just the way nature works isn't it... so... it might be fallen leaves now... but there's always an opportunity to turn over a new leaf... and sprout into a greener one...

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/16/2006 12:41:00 AM 0 comments

20060315

shine

a full sun and a full moon radiantly shining and glowing these days and nights have been brighter and happier

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/15/2006 01:38:00 PM 0 comments

20060314

rotfl

ROTFL

i was so tickled that i was literally rolling on the floor laughing my insides out until it hurt so bad... and even my eyes were teary... was the joke funny? to me it definitely struck a resonant chord with my funny bone... all i can say is i made a malaprop but instead of me being targeted for my blunder (which is normally the case for any blunder-er)... someone else ended up being the butt of the joke... or maybe it wasn't exactly the person but just the whole situation at that point of time... only two ppl out there will know what this post means so i'll just move on to somethin' else... was having drinks with my fellow bassist and his final-year buddies... and they were talkin' bout their projects... which they are currently in the midst of... and it's kinda worrying for me... cos i know next to nothing on what to do for mine... four months away and i'm concerned already... i should really start to research or somethin'...

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/14/2006 01:01:00 AM 0 comments

20060313

would it be?

if no tears were shed would laughter be joyful? if there was no absence would presence be cherished? if there were no difficulties would there be gratitude? if there was no pain would there be love?

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/13/2006 04:55:00 AM 0 comments

20060312

difference

it only takes one person to create a huge impact to make the waves roar to break down the walls to revive the drooping spirit to capture the heart to cheer the weary to comfort the lonely to make a difference

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/12/2006 12:26:00 PM 0 comments

20060311

only?

love is only a feeling drifting away when I'm in your arms I start believing it's here to stay but love is only a feeling anyway the darkness - love is only a feeling ______________________________________________________________

my two tests are over... i got a great internship offer... and at the end of the week... i am still feelin' the blues... and it's a real enthusiasm-killer :(

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/11/2006 12:55:00 AM 0 comments

20060310

temperamental

one second he's normal the next he's mental fighting this obsession is his current mission he looks around there's no one to be found voices in his head torment him to his bed sleep deprived barely alive soldiering on is it all forlorn?

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/10/2006 12:51:00 AM 0 comments

20060309

from the sky

this is downtown JB... at the bottom right corner is the causeway... and at the top centre is city square... probably the best-known landmark in the city...

the link between a developed nation... and another one struggling to...

stulang laut... the white building on the right is the zon regency hotel which is part of the duty free zone... where cash-strapped students like me get their supply of drinks...

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/09/2006 07:35:00 PM 0 comments

20060308

custard

oh guys don't worry... this is not another of my poems again... if it were... i think the only word to rhyme with custard would be b**tard... and that isn't too nice... instead this is a tribute to the world's luckiest custard of which i had two servings today... thanks to my friend who lives a few blocks away (who might not wanna be named due to her low-profile complex behavior? :P) thanks anyway... u know who u are... burnt dozens of dvds last night... and will be ripping some more tonight... in the midst of revision... last-minute revision as usual... that's about all... if i'm in the mood there might just be another poem... let's hope not... haha

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/08/2006 10:53:00 PM 1 comments

broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore Seether - Broken

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/08/2006 12:50:00 AM 0 comments

20060307

stand

he stands in the middle of the street surrounded by throngs of people looking around he finds himself in the midst of the crowd yet all alone he stands by himself a stranger in a foreign land watching the world pass him by no one stops to listen his cries go unheard he stands silently watching her from a distance watching her pass him by the sands of time are being washed away he stands on the edge on the verge of falling disturbed, deranged he desperately seeks salvation but he is all alone

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/07/2006 07:58:00 PM 0 comments

elusive-illusive

why does she seem elusive? he is always waiting in her shadow ready with arms outstretched to break her fall even when she's near she's out of reach he can't cross the barrier which keeps them apart why does she seem illusive? destined forever to only exist in his dreams? not a second goes by without her on his mind he just cannot stop the rush of feelings he is falling deeper

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/07/2006 02:01:00 AM 0 comments

20060306

subside

had such difficulty lookin' for parkin' in jj on sat nite... and on sun afternoon... i had to get drenched as i resorted to parkin' outdoors in the rain... so anyway... i didn't buy anythin' as usual cos i don't shop at all besides gettin' toiletries and stationery... which don't run out so fast anyway... ninety percent of my visits (like on sat & sun) are because my friends wanted to shop... u could say i'm a social shopper... not even a window-shopper cos i don't bother lookin' at anythin on display anyway... ;) hope the new week will be a better one... especially for a friend of mine who has had a rough time over the past five days or so... comin' up are two tests... two assignments... nothin' i can't handle tho'... ;)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/06/2006 01:57:00 AM 0 comments

20060305

three a.m.

haven't been sleepin' much lately... two or three hours less than the usual per night... nothin' serious really... have just been runnin' around and hangin' out a lot... it's three in the morn now... should be sleepin'... but i thought i'll just accompany my friend to chat for a while first :) well... my bro's got a blog! didn't expect him to start one... ;) keep it up!

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/05/2006 02:43:00 AM 0 comments

20060304

clear

for the record... i don't change my msn status... so whether i'm in or out... feel free to drop an im... just don't get agitated if there's no reply... which is when i'm out... but there'll be a reply if ur still online when i'm back... i had to finally type such a crappy post just to set things straight for some ppl who don't understand that although my pc is online 24/7... i am not... for example... i just got back home to see a rather sarcastic im from someone who doubted that i was actually not at my pc the whole day... and preferred to believe that i just didn't wanna reply... let me see... i woke up today... freshened up for a while... made my way downtown to visit a friend for six plus hours... came back home just for awhile to freshen up... headed off to take my math test... and then adjourned to a party... and finally i'm home at two in the a.m... so i think it's quite clear what i'm trying to say... gotta sleep now... tired out

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/04/2006 01:49:00 AM 0 comments

20060302

desert

under the scorching sun he traverses the blistering sand in the harsh sweltering heat he is overcome by thirst struggling along seeking refuge an oasis appears in the distance his hopes are raised rejuvenation beckons as he inches closer the sight slowly vanishes a mirage it is what will become of him?

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/02/2006 06:22:00 PM 2 comments

hazardous

some updates: my test is tomorrow and i am only going to start two chapters from scratch today :)

went to church a few hours ago for ash wednesday mass which marks the forty days of the lenten season before easter my friend must have had the unluckiest day... had a swollen eyelid in the morning due to an insect bite... and a swollen hand in the evening due to a sprain during a volleyball game... imagine going to the doc's twice in a day for separate injuries... unexpectedly unfortunate... slept for three hours only last night cos i was rushin' to finish my assignment none of the above stuff are actually interesting i think... if you're still reading... good :)

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/02/2006 12:05:00 AM 0 comments

20060301

respite

that's what this post is... a brief getaway from my unfinished assignment... circuits and simulations always create unwanted problems... oh... enough said... fellow serpents were over at my place... one to copy my circuit... and the other to give me the latest episode of prison break... which i am so tempted to watch now... but look at the time... i'll just have to finish my work first before anything else... mcd's for lunch and tea today... too much of a good thing is sickening... but the weather was so scorching hot i just had to take refuge in the cold-en arches... time to finish some dirty business...

posted by [[[[|]]]] # 3/01/2006 02:28:00 AM 0 comments