Piece of Mind

if the personal message above sounds familiar... that's because u read it in one of my poems :P ... and btw... it's not my personal message but rather another friend's...

no, i ain't seen love like that
and i got people telling me to let her go
don't let it turn you around
tomorrow's comin' and you'll never know
the one that you lost may be found

mr. big - ain't seen love like that

so much to cover for the next ten days...
so many phases in the past five months...
so much she doesn't know about...
so many words i didn't say...
so much to be grateful for...
so many things i still wish for...
so much to look forward to...
so many dreams unrealized...

she will never know...
all the sleepless nights...
all the tearless cries...
face down on the pillow...
smothered by sorrow...

missing her every minute...
he doesn't want her to know...
inside he shall keep it...
for another tomorrow...

it was just a casual remark but to me it meant a lil more... to me it meant that she realized somethin' i knew all along... it meant that she didn't forget what i'd told her before... it meant that she still cared a little at least... at first it felt nice to hear those words from her... but then if it took so long for it to dawn upon her... the situation is quite clear... and it doesn't feel so nice after all...

has the sun set on the beautiful day we had?
are memories all that's left of what we shared?
was it me? or was it you?
the sky has changed to black from blue

maybe you were just too tied up
the many times you stood me up
the past is gone, let it be
to my future i hold the key

i keep your photograph and i know it serves me well seether - broken got a picture of you i carry in my heart close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark lonestar - not a day goes by i had a picture of you in my mind boyzone - picture of you our picture taken yesterday slowly starts to fade away there's got to be an answer vonray - inside out

the set meal in tgif was worth it... not to mention extremely large... the dishes on the left column were those of my set... and those on the right were my friend's... left set: fried calamari, fish & chips, triple choc fudge brownies right set: sesame jack chicken strips, citrus fish fillet with rice, some choc fudge with ice-cream dessert and a huge glass of mudslide cocktail to wash it all down!

my night in short... 0930... mcd 1030... bus station 1130... mcd this would have been just another night for me... until the decision to visit a pub in sutera... 0115... b pub 0200... police raid 0300... urine test -> positive... handcuffed... police truck 0330... detained in narcotics dept 0440... freed without bail

i didn't realise i got tagged last week or so... anyway here it is 4 jobs tgv levi's home-tutor intel intern (soon) 4 movies i'd repeatedly watch the matrix trilogy (none) 4 places i've lived ipoh garden ksds jln pulai 50 jln pulai 79 4 fave tv shows prison break house friends futurama 4 vacation destinations sg pg kl mlk 4 daily-visited sites gmail friendster mininova frets 4 fave foods fried chicken fried yong tau foo crackers ny cheesecake french fries 4 places i'd rather be at ny nz tokyo dream theater's studio

i can't be hangin' on to a string forever it's a matter of time before i come crashing down it's hard to walk away from the memories when i don't know why they've become history putting in so much effort and concern has yielded nothing but a cold shoulder why is it so hard to be a little nicer? aren't we worth much more than this?

help me face my worst fear help me get through the night help me have peace of mind help me learn to be still pull me from this anguish free me from this bondage save me from this confusion breathe life into me again

what if the cracks were due to gripping too tightly? holding on to something more tightly so that it wouldn't slip away isn't always the solution... for it might just crack and break under pressure... as in the case of an egg... but how would i know if the grip is too tight or too loose? either way all would be lost... or maybe there was never much to lose in the first place... if only things were simpler... and straightforward... but how often is it easy in life? losing grip... losing everything... that would be the worst... other people have different opinions than mine... i am more pessimistic... but i should know best... or is that just what i think? i don't believe there were signs... but others believe otherwise... how can i travel the extra mile uphill when i keep on sliding down? there is so much weight on my back that i'll have to unload some off here... i wish everything was still going forward unlike now... somehow i don't have high hopes but i'm still hoping against odds they say... it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all... that's probably what makes us human... but the losing part must also be one of the worst times of one's life... but if it is part and parcel of human relationships, there's no escaping it... to live in a solitary shell would be far worse i think... there's no escaping the blood, sweat and tears... everything needs effort... failure must be faced with composure and closure... a rough journey to traverse... but i sure enough have to do it...

as i'm typing this the sky's overcast... and i can hear thunder in the distance... my roomie earlier told me about some jog plans... guess it won't work out today... well the wind blowing into my room is much cooler now... so... that's a relief...

as he sits by the pier she is no longer here the masts were raised the ships have sailed silently he reflects on the future all forlorn a thousand years couldn't rewind it back to the start a thousand tears would not have moved her heart slowly he tries to swallow the bitter truth and sorrow

two three four... tell the people what she wore... much to my surprise a friend just told me that she's into all these oldies... haha... i guess she would enjoy my dad's cd n karaoke video collection... it's a pretty hot afternoon and to make it worse... i went to have laksa for lunch at the roadside stall in tmn u... and the whole world knows how spices make me sweat... slackin'... relaxin'... enjoyin' all the time... nevertheless... somethin's missin'...

it's been a while since i hung out from dusk to dawn... today was one of such days...